I have very few friends because of this stupid illness. I lost all my work colleagues when I lost my job. I've lost 6 friends since 2012 just cause they can't deal with my moods when I'm depressed I'm apparently too difficult to handle I go in circles and when I'm manic I'm too difficult to handle cause of my actions.

When I was manic recently I confided in my remaining 2 friends. They made me contact my mental health team as they said I was in crisis. I wasn't but I followed their advice. I texted them the outcome.... no response. I saw my Nurse for the last time as he is retiring and we spoke about my 'crisis'.... again I texted them and again no response. That was over a week ago.

We have had sever snow and temperatures have hit -13 so I texted them and said be careful on the roads as both are drivers. Still no response even though they have received and read ALL my messages. It's done on WhatsApp so I can see.

I'm so frustrated at myself for being such a loser. I was in tears last night cause I'm so alone in this s@@@@y world. I just want friends who know who I am with and without mental health. They both have known me over 10 years. But I'm afraid I have burnt my bridges with them. A girl I chat to online said to contact them again as they are on FB constantly. So I contacted my friend through FB messenger and she read the message but didn't respond. I'm feeling really hurt.

Do others find bp has ruined their relationships?