I noted something last night as I engaged in an email exchange with her. I think it's been a couple of years since she tried to contact me last. Or, possibly the fact I have a new phone that did not keep her as a blocked caller.

Keeping in mind that it is text and easier to be more reflective than reactive, interacting with her didn't stir things up for me, even when she just tried to get me to go back to the past right where she wants things to be. I see her as using me and as selfish in seeking contact, but I'm willing to engage within my pretty limited boundaries anyway.

But my real question is should I tell her to just go off and not contact me again? Only she is benefiting from this "relationship." I really would just prefer to not hear from her again, but don't want to hurt her by saying so. It's not really a great sacrifice for me to have this kind of limited communication. I just wonder if it's more important for me to "help" her or more important for me to do what I want, or if it's more important for me to be the kind of person who "helps" her than to be true to myself.