Hi Skeezyks

Thank you for replying and for your nice words, you almost got me out of my depression state. I was looking for someone experienced the same problem so he/she can understand.

You are right about your suspicion I am so sad and lack motivation for life even before now and what happened recently was like the final nail in the coffin (metaphorically I hope). I used to see a therapist because I suffer from social anxiety disorder but therapy didn’t do me good at all, but I am considering seeing another therapist.

My intention was to seek advice but I will stay around for some time, thank you for your welcoming and useful links you post.