I am horrified of going back tomorrow. I feel like I can't get out of this state although I know I did this weekend. Why do I feel like I am in mortal danger? This is very reminiscent of my past episodes and I am very serious when I say that this is terrifying. I can't stop being so afraid and it doesn't make sense. I need help and don't know if I am going to make it. This negativity has gone on way too long, I need to somehow get out of this. I desperately need help.