I've called the social work building up the road from me for like 3 years. Well, I live near there now because of the flat I ended up in, but they never return my phone calls regarding obtaining support. I've left voicemail over and over again, just not too frequently, but I know that I've did it enough times by now to at least merit getting a return call anyway. Just taking any rubbish support from unqualified people promotes inner weakness.

The frustrating thing is that nobody in this building makes any real sort of effort to ring me back - ever. Even recently, I've attempted to get a new social worker from there because I think the one I currently have works against me (although they all do pretty much the same job, my mother keeps telling me). I'm asked to leave X person voicemail by a receptionist, then I'm fully ignored forever more. The cycle of calling and being neglected repeats.

This guy has done absolutely *NOTHING* productive for me since I met him. He once found me two guys that didn't have flexible hours, as that agency they're from has fewer staff than the agency that supported me from 2008 to 2014 (the one I had problems with). Other than that, the guys were generally okay as people, but I clearly stated that 'fixed' hours is no good. Then I gave them up in next to no time. Following this decision, I waited around a year for him to find alternate support, as it was like I was back at square one. He found me a Moroccan support worker from a nursing agency who just wound me up from the jump, so I ditched him, and that was like a year ago. I've ran into him a few times outdoors, but he just acts lippy if I say anything.

This social worker likely tells all these potential support places that I cannot work with women due to that legal ordeal from before, but I already agreed with him years ago that I'd only have guys (although it's likely mandatory that I don't be supported by females in any case). So already, I'm sure they're probably running a mile and this is before they have even laid eyes on me.

To be honest as well, there's really not unlimited amounts of support agencies in cities like Edinburgh either, so I reckon he has been around the lot of them, gas bagging about me. Not to mention, social workers have to agree on how to fund the support, so they want to make sure their money isn't being "wasted" (as he puts it across) on things the client selects the support for, that they perhaps don't agree with providing it for. Like with my desire to be an extra in films for example, I've often told him that I have intense anxiety and so this means I usually cannot go alone to film sets. But, yeah. I've covered all this in my prior topics.

I could scream sometimes. How am I going to even meet people in general without any help? Being on the Internet all day long and doing this every single day is vastly unhealthy as well, and it actually makes me feel irritable. That and some of the members on the other message boards I've been on aren't terribly nice.