I accomplished everything on my goals list. I even made lasagna which is pretty labor intensive. I feel oddly in control. Detached and disconnected from my emotions. Maybe that’s necessary at this time, who knows. Maybe my brain has just had enough.

I’m controlling my life through controlling my diet right now. No artificial sweeteners and the least amount of added sugars as possible. It makes me feel like I’m doing SOMETHING right.

I took an Ativan around 3pm because the anxiety thoughts were starting to return and I almost couldn’t go grocery shopping so maybe that’s why I’m so detached.