I know when my PTSD and anxiety gets up I forget what to do to help myself even though I am well practiced.so now I keep a cheat sheet on my refrigerator to remind me. I also have coping options on my tablet. I use STOP,BREATHE, THINK a lot. I know you can handle this trip successfully, Seesaw. All you have written here gives me great confidence in your capabilities. Stay in the moment 5 seconds at a time if that's what it takes.