Hi, I just spent the last 2 hours on hold( disconnected me 2 xs) with the suicide hotline because I want to hurt myself. This 3rd time calling I've been the next person to be helped for about 45 min. Seriously after holding for so long then they have you do a questionaire before chatting( excuse me, before booted you out of there chat room. Now I know why people don't seek help or end up offing themselves. I feel worst than I did several hours ago. I don't know what else to do. I'm struggling here. Nothing else is working