Hey guys,

I'm new to the forum but wanted to connect with some of you.

I was diagnosed with bipolar eight years ago and though not hung up with the label, it has had a huge impact on my daily life.

Currently, I am struggling to stay in college (I've been trying to get through school for years with work leaves, medical leaves), but I really don't know where this is going. It's not that I am unsure about my path. I love what I currently do, and that is draw cartoons.

But, I chose to go to an American school instead of one in my country because of the opportunities. So far, so much has happened creatively.

School has gone seemingly well, but it's beginning to lose its meaning to me. Mostly everything is beginning to lose its meaning to me. Uncharacteristically, I just find myself lying in bed staring at the wall. I'm usually able to push through no matter how I feel (since I became depressed at 12). The medication also plays a part in suppressing my highs.

Some things have happened in the past that really affected me, and the other day I found myself with a tie around my neck just to see how it felt. I just don't know what to do.

A bit of a rant. Hope everyone else is a managing and possibly has advice.