I hear you.

LGBTQphobic discrimination and bullying is pervasive in my nation - in schools, the military, in the work force. Every year some vocal churches push "conversion therapy" with video testimonies of "ex gays", "ex transgender folks", "ex bisexuals". My father routinely viciously physically abused my transgender sibling for "acting effeminate". I get into shouting arguments with my father as I masquerade as a "straight ally". I would be disowned and kicked out of the home if I came out. My work environment is very LGBTQphobic as well.

In my part of Asia, the "It gets better" tagline is untrue for it's getting worse each year.

Fight the internalised hatred. You are not alone.