<font color="purple"> ((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))) </font>

Please know that many of us understand where you are coming from and how you are feeling today - the confusion is so over bearing and the mind cannot think straight let along function in times of stress....... please take care of your self and rest as need, and if you have not tried it - get a notebook and just journal any and all thoughts / feelings and over time the puzzle will start to come to together.