I was told by my family physician that I was experiencing panic attacks because I was complaining about numbness in my face, fingers, and toes. He explained to me that I was or wasn't releasing enough carbon monoxide from my body and this resulted in the numbness. Therefore,he told me to breath into a paper bag when I felt out of breath. I was shocked at this. I thought to myself; I am in control of my life, and I do not have to breath into a paper bag.

My first experience with anxiety came upon me approximately two years ago while I was planning a family reunion, going to school full-time, mothering a four-year-old, working part-time, and trying to diet at the same time. My life was chaotic, but I did not realize that all of these activities would have me going to the emergency room every week for about six weeks straight. I had my family a nervous wreck. My mother would cry with me. My dad would tell other relatives about his concerns for me. It was a terrible ordeal.

I thought something was really wrong with me. I did not beieve my doctor's expertise. Therefore, he sent me to other specialist to see if it was something else. I seen a neurologist, a heart specialist, and I even had a MRI. All of these specialist stated that I was healthy as an ox. Consequently, I did have to go on blood pressure pills due to all of the stress in my life. Nevertheless, my doctor did prescribe Xanax for me; however, I did not like how it made me feel. I felt limp and not in control of my body. Therefore, I stop taking the meds. At this time I am still not taking any meds for my anxiety I just deal with it. I do not know if this is healthy or not only time will tell. However, I believe with my family's pray, and I believe my faith in God all things are possible.

Chazi