So the best way for me to move on from him, even though I'm not really ready is to on-line date. It's helping me not think of him every moment, but at the same time I'm comparing guys to him and I really loved him but he doesn't compromise and would make life really hard. I loved his body he was big and strong like an ox big, most guys are small in comparison even seemingly big guys aren't like him. I'll have to settle for a small stature guy.

I just don't know why he has such a hold on me it's lessoning but it still there, I'd jump in his arms in a minute if he only really wanted me to.