I have felt like an outsider for all of my life, too. Not a nice feeling. I especially have felt that way when I go to churches and at where I live. It seems like the people are very paired up or in groups in those two places; and don't have room for me. At work I don't feel that way. I feel like I belong more at work. But I can't open up too much to the others with my life. It's mostly just small talk. I have to be careful not to be a downer at work.

As I've gotten older, it does not bother me as much. I thought it would. But still I hate feeling like an outsider. I'm introverted so I don't need a lot of people in my life. Having two to four good friends is enough for me. If I only have just one close friend (which is what it's like for me now), then it's OK for me.