So....depressed for three days, now I am back UP! It’s like taking Ativan takes away the horrible rage and anxiety and leaves me with the euphoria all by itself! It’s fantastic!

Seriously after I pushed through the initial sleepiness this morning (by drinking a half-caff coffee) my day went great! I was talkative and fabulous, even talked during lunch, talked to my awful Co-teacher. Didn’t care about her answers or NON ANSWERS as they were. I’m not worried about my school tracking me or the police arresting me. I’m just HAPPY!

I’m soooo excited because we might get a snow day on Wednesday!!! Not excited to shovel snow but I would love a day off!

I wanna drive fast and drink and get a tattoo but I won’t do any of that but only because I already mismanaged funds last weekend (also hypomanic). I did spend $50 on liquor for my SIL though when a single bottle of wine would have sufficed. That’s for her for this weekend.

I am sooooo happy and sooooo glad I’m not suffering right now!!! Even though I know by the AM I bet on everything I have I’ll be suffering again, but who tf knows at this point in my life!

Some day though it would be nice to get back to stability. Maybe when my job is over.