It turns out that I have become delusional. I thought he was out to get me. But he did tell me to stop sending him messages (I sent 3) so I feel so confused.

I now have a "hangover" feeling from all that happened last night. I even got to the point where I thought he would access my other accounts so I frantically changed the passwords. I was so close to attempting suicide again, the episode was very intense that reminds me of when I use to drink.

Going through oxycodone withdrawals doesn't help...

If I can't get through this, there's no point anymore.