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Originally Posted by Lola5
Ok, totally get what you're saying. I feel super guilty about the whole thing. I have kept seeing him because I want to like him and I tell myself that I shouldn't have this cultural background requirement. I have been hoping that feelings would develop since he seems to be a match in a number of ways. I have avoided relationships my whole life and I'm scared that I'm letting a good one slip away. I'm a complete noob at dating/relationships.
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I'm a noob at it all over again at 43. I've had offers from women I wasn't into and was honest about it. I've had an offer and wasn't into her but took the offer anyway. I told her the whole time I didn't want a relationship. I didn't even let her tell me her name because I didn't care. It was about sex, and that was phenomenal. She developed feelings and I felt bad about it and told her it was over, because I only felt physical attraction to her. The last time we spoke at all she punched me, deservedly and deservedly hard, in front of other people. I hurt her because she liked me and I let it continue. I still have guilt over that. I wouldn't do it again and I won't. I don't even want just hookups any more.