i am sorry you feel that your best years are being wasted on pain...it sucks. i dunno about last week...i kinda try to live hour by hour and don't make any plans. today i am going to try the gym...not really looking forward to it in some ways, but other ways i am cause i need to get my strength back up. so, 6 of one half dozen of the other...i hope you are feeling a bit better melanie