My parents abused me, my siblings just watched. It was targeted abuse. I was forced to escape my family (they were insane, deserve death penalty) and get my own place. I lost all my friends since my parents abused me so badly I became physically handicapped so I can't go out and see people.

I have no friends IRL. No family. Only got friends online.

I am too old for a parent since I'm an adult, 22, now, but I feel I need to get to know someone who I can trust, someone who won't abuse me. Someone I can call and get help from when things get bad. I'm not depressed but just very sad about this. My parents abused me since I was a young teen. I just have a longing for someone to be my close friend and just be a decent person simply. I'm just thinking in general... it doesn't feel right. I feel all alone and I wish someone could help me. I am handicapped, I have no one to turn to. Where should I go? To a church or something?

What should I do?