After about 6 months of feeling happy without having issues with depression, the last months my suicidal thoughts slowly came back. I feel useless and I feel like I have nothing to live for. I just feel like I don’t have a future and I think my life is useless and that I’d be better off dead (sorry if this is a trigger). When I was 11 years old, I got bullied and that made me suicidal, right now I have amazing friends (they don’t know about my mental illnesses), I don’t get bullied and I don’t really have a reason to be sad. The last months I got less passionate about my hobby’s and I started injuring myself again. I haven’t told anybody about how I feel, not even my parents. But I don’t know how to tell them that I’m depressed . But when I’m alone for a moment and I’m not paying much attention, I go crazy in my head with suicidal tendencies and hallucination.