I am trying so hard to numb myself to the pain resulting from my social anxiety and am failing. It is like stupid things happening in my life now feel like a major, massive incident. I can't stop writing negativity here. This has to get better. I am plagued by minor things and I have no control over it. I feel like I hate myself right now because I can't change myself. I'm sick of myself. Is this going to last forever? i just cant do this. it is devastating me. please tell me there's a way out of this.