Hey all,
My worries about developing schizophrenia have returned and I've started worrying about the time three years ago where I got confused between whether I was remembering a distant memory or remembering something that happened in a dream. I am convinced that that meant I was losing it and that my subsequent episodes of "memory confusion" only validate that fear. For example, today i was thinking about how my childhood friend was selling her family farm and suddenly I thought I remembered seeing on Facebook a post from her that said she sold the farm. I looked on her page and there was no such post, but the "memory" seemed pretty vivid at the time and I'm worried I remembered something I dreamed or am just having random thoughts that I'm believing are true.
I am going to refrain from reading about psychosis online but im just sitting here scared I'm going crazy and ruminating a TON about this