Well, it took a while but finally my job had an occasion to kick me while I'm down (which is to say, to stack three independent deadlines on top of each other, for tasks that I absolutely loathe)... I just don't care anymore. It's never getting better. I mean, I managed to apply for and get a bit of a reply from a job, which I don't care about either, but might have to take (if they come through) just to make sure for when this job disappears. And it's pretty much the same thing, in a different field. Maybe even worse, because without any real-life human contact whatsoever... And because of the lack of time, nothing in my hobbies is getting anywhere... I just want it to end. I know I won't end it myself. But I've started to thoroughly ignore my health. Because it just doesn't matter... Try to get yourself in shape, look after your sleep, it doesn't matter... To them you're just a couple of eyes and typing appendages...