I can 100% relate to this statement. Both of my parents emotionally abandoned me a long time ago; my dad did before he died and I didn't cry at his funeral. Instead, I just felt awkward for not feeling sad that he died but disappointed that he gave up on me before he died, and didn't even like me.

My mother is still alive but she's emotionally abused me my entire life. She's never been a source of safety, nurture, or love towards me but the opposite. She's been neglectful, manipulative, emotionally cut-off, mean and unapologetic.

When I spent months in the hospital recovering from a serious accident, she didn't even call my hospital room or come to visit me. When I was released to her home for outpatient rehabilitation from my accident, she treated me like dirt. She was mean to me, and refused to drive me to my medical appointments. She was like this when my dad was at home dying from cancer; she smoked around him and ignored him. At her brother's wake, when it was her turn to stand up and share a nice memory of my uncle, she stood up and complained that everyone always like him more than they liked her.

When she passes away, I'll be further alienated from my immediate family and distant family because they are very distant and judgemental people.

Will I experience feelings of abandonment? Not really. I was abandoned by her emotionally a long time ago. I don't know how her death will impact me, other than distance me further from my siblings and family since I don't really fit their mold.