Thank you for telling me you are never ashamed of me. I really, really needed that. H is over me, and I am over me. I need to focus on myself and my reactions and not seek reassurance. I am having a difficult time with all of this. I feel humiliated and ashamed of myself. I am honestly doing the best that I can at any given time. In spite of this, I am slinking down to the lowest common denominator. I feel so bad about myself. I am so much better than I used to be overall, but this is painful. But I'm really angry at this. I hope that there is hope that I can get better from this.