I've been around, just lurking. I failed in my attempt to eat on schedule and am back to eating at will. Sigh! I guess on some level i have decided that the pleasure of eating indulgently outweighs the disadvantages -- 'outweighs' both literally and figuratively, haha. Anyways, i am enjoying not harrassing myself about eating.

When i was little and me or my sister would cry over some little thing my mom would always say, "Are you a Sugar-Plum Fairy or a Real Tough Kid?" We would tearfully say, "A Sugar-Plum Fairy!" The years have passed but i am still the same.

My mom was a functional alcoholic. She chose to live with indulgent drinking and i guess i am choosing to live with indulgent eating. The consequences of my disorder are less tho, so that's something and i'm not hurting five children, just my dog, who i can't be active with.

I'm having such a nice time just now. There's a snowstorm outside but i am cozy inside with mood music playing and my huge TV tuned to the aquarium channel and a full stomach -- such pleasures!