i haven't found it yet, if it does exist, but I was looking for a similar thread to this in the borderline section. Sadly, I think that's probably what I have. Therapist seems to concur today and my Nurse Practicioner brought it up last visit when she recommended the actual psychiatrist. I'm sure I've said this a few times already on this site.

Anyway, it's been a long, sad, painful, and emotional last few days. I've had cuts and blisters on my fingers for weeks, but it's gotten so bad today with menstrual inflammation on top of it. I am so damn sick of crying but there isn't much I can do. I kicked a door this evening (had shoes on) and it feels good to do that stuff, but my husband isn't so pleased with me destroying our things ("his" things). Anyway, that's pretty frustrating. Life is just frustrating! God, all I've been doing all this past week is complain. But it's just getting to be a lot again. Boo!!!

And I really don't want to do taxes at this point, but that s*&^ needs to get done. (we probably cannot curse on this site, right? sorry. and it's hard for me to say sorry in this moment, but deep down, I'm sorry i can't control myself like people around me expect I should.) *sigh*