My mind is.

There is so much stuff that is buzzing around, I feel it and am paralysed thinking about it, sit crying unable to do anything. Then I'll get myself together eventually and try and write down what is bothering me. All the thoughts that I know are buzzing around. But I can't.

It's like my mind is so full of things I know need to be addressed and things making me unhappy. I can't get hold of them. I feel so full up of emotional stuff.

It's like I have no support IRL right now. I spoke to my one contact in the community team saying I kinda needed to speak with him quite soon and it was important. But he's too busy, so I cannot see him until next week.

I'm meant to be being closely monitered, or so I was told. So much for that.

I know I have people here to chat to, but I still need someone IRL who knows and understands me. Who can give advice knowing my true situation from a professional angle.

I feel lost, scared and lonely.