Kratom Not available here. I can't stay still and all I can think about is how I'm going to fool a doc into giving them to me. I even thought of an aggressive approach with my doc, but that won't work. I have weed, but I don't want the "high" right now at this time of 6am. I'm popping Lyrica, but even that has it's downfall. I've even googled "suicide tips forum deep web" and as you can imagine it's a labyrinth of loops. I feel like I'm going to peak soon.