Im having to do this timeline thing for therapy. One thing I put on my timeline is a situation that happened when my uncle touched me one night when i was around 11. I always wore a bra to sleep. I never knew why before. When I woke up it was off. I had had different sexual abuse situations when I was younger but that was the first one during my teen/pre-teen years.

I was thinking why this stood out so much and even why I remember wearing the bra to bed at night. At first I thought of course, this was my protection. But I'm not sure I was thinking last night about how to me the bra helped take away my sexuality to others, maybe it decreased the attntion that I would get and sleeping with it on meant during the night no one would find me sexual again as they did when I was a child. So now, I really understand better why my uncle still touching me that night was important, because the bra had lost its power to protect me and desexualize me.