I keep feeling angry which helps me be me. However, when it dissipates I feel inferior to everyone and I despise it. I feel like I have nothing important to give. Like I'm a big nobody. I want to be my own agent. I feel like I am an alien from outer space and I have been thrown into the mix and I have no idea what to do. I feel like a big loser. Is this forever? Is this going to get better at all? How do I become a person? I just want to feel safe, but at work, I don't. I'm really low and I mean low.