Yes, absolutely.

I'm not planning on saying or doing anything to him; I'm just concerned he's going to try and use our bad breakup against me, because he thinks it will affect my job.

In my T appointment today, she was shocked at some of the scenarios I told her about. I was shocked that I didn't recognize they were a problem. He really had me snowed. It doesn't feel like a regular breakup; it doesn't feel as though I was rejected. It runs deeper; I was, essentially lied to for years. I question myself, my judgment, my intelligence. I know I'm not stupid, I just got caught up with a very good manipulator. Like my friend said, the only thing I was guilty of with it was liking a guy, and wanting him to like me back. But I can know all of that intellectually, and still feel in my heart that I'm the one to blame.