Sky,
Thank-you for your kind words.I have actually not paid for sex for 2 months now. I posted because I was spending hours online planning another encounter, and realised that I needed help. I have decided that I will tackle this problem without a therapist. I have also posted on another forum, and I have had plenty of support and advice.

There are plenty of good reasons for staying "clean", but what is really driving me is the desire not to let you and all these other good people down.

I will post again in 6 months time to tell of my progress.