I haven’t posted much lately. Mainly been busy and enjoying my cats. I did sleep all day yesterday and was feeling slightly depressed about all the bad in the past 6/7 years.
Today was cleaning my room as it’s the only place I haven’t allowed my cats in so they can hang out. I found some old pictures of me and some friends in college. I looked good . It felt good reminiscing about the fun times I had with them. I then got sad. We have parted ways slowly and felt envious of all their success, children relationships, weddings. I only went to one in this group. I felt why did they not invite me and why did we grow apart etc. but I still smile at the good times.

I don’t know. I feel good about the past, before depression struck, miss my old life and friends. Also envious, jealous and sad my life didn’t go as I wished. Drawing this night as a sorta wash.

I have to beat this anxiety if staying by myself and not getting sadnloking st others and seeing all they have accomplished.