hang in there! it's good you have your husband there, but i know that doesn't take the feelings away. Try to remember it's just good that you are not alone though, at home and on this site. (I'm kinda new to this section, so I'm noticing it doesn't get as much attention as say the bipolar section. It's kindof sad to me, but probably just something I need to get used to. Plus, I benefit a lot from the bipolar section too and they are very warm people considering how difficult life is. Speaking of difficulty, perhaps that's another reason this section doesn't get as much activity, because of the difficult nature of the subjects?? I hope I'm not an idiot for saying that. One of my "issues" is like need for attention, so I guess I'm speaking from that place. Hope it was cool that I shared some of myself with you. And I hope your struggles become easier.