I did leave a place I worked at ages ago. I looked around and everything that day seemed so wrong around me. I slammed a $3000 coolant-channeled tool at probably 5000 RPM into a piece of hardened stainless but thought I was doing my job. I didn't understand what I'd done and left. I drove my bike the 9.5 miles mostly with my eyes closed, hoping I'd get hit the whole time. I didn't go back for three days. I was embarrassed and didn't understand. I was so fed up with everything. I ended up in an outpatient clinic being told I had a severe caffeine addiction, needed medications but never knew what or anything. I tried to keep that job but went into a mania because as I later found out, my now-ex had been giving me antidepressants and not until she ran out did she convince me to go and get my own. I did and went into full mania, breaking something else at the job, losing the job because of it, and then losing the antidepressants.