the_disordered_one,

I can relate to what you're saying. I don't even like parties that I have to put on (children graduating from high school). I do not like crowds or noise, even when it's people that I love.

I have found that lorazapam helps a great deal. I won't go so far as saying that I'm now the girl about town or that I enjoy myself, but it helps me deal with the panic attacks and endure the things that I have to. I'm also much easier to take on the lorazapam . I tend not to be very good company in the midst of a panic attack. I cannot tell you how many functions that we've had to leave early, or my husband bring me home then go back and stay with the kids because I just couldn't bare it another second.