I'm still scared. I woke in the middle of the night terrified and the shaking started again. You were right, I was feeling very, very young yesterday. How am I supposed to look after my little one when I feel so little myself. I'm so scared he's going to be like me. I love him so much, I'm sure he must feel it. I tell him all the time, I hug him all the time. Surely that counts for something. I don't know what it's like to feel loved and safe and secure. I just hope he feels it. I want it to be next week now please, I need to see you, I need to know it's ok.