T,

Conversion therapy is such a triggering topic. My friend (cis het and Abrahamic religion duh) insisted on being "neutral" about it. Dunno, maybe you too would remain "neutral"... since you're cis het and of the same religion.

I do feel bitter and jaded thinking "you and people like her can afford to be neutral. It isn't Who You Are being "debated" as natural vs unnatural, to affirm vs to seek to cure."

And it hurts... it's not like "the debate on mindfulness or the debate on ECT". It's not "some benefit, some are harmed".

People kill themselves because of this. Families disown their children because of this. People beat, torture and rape us for this! I grew up witnessing my sibling being viciously physically abused as a young boy because of this.

To me (and I also see where she's coming from), neutrality in the face of harm done is siding with the oppressor.

And no, I didn't get angry with my friend. I worked hard to be fair, reasonable and calm and on compromise regarding her listing THAT organisation on her "mental health resource list."

Anyway meh...maybe I should shut up. I swing back and forth like pendulum depending on if I hate myself or accept myself.

Hate myself = "I should self harm and attend conversion therapy to torture myself into heterosexual. Do or die. Like really, go jump from the block if I fail.". Accept myself = "OMG conversion therapy drives people to suicide, get ****ing upset that people don't condemn the practice".

Where do YOU stand, T? Or are you "neutral" too?