Hi Graystreet,
Hopefully you can move past this by keeping busy with things to make your life a pleasant and peaceful experience. My advice is stay away from social media in regards to looking at profiles and trying to follow up on things.
I’m convinced my life would have moved in a better direction if I hadn’t felt the need to know how my ex’s life was progressing without me in it. I finally deleted my fb permanently just because I couldn’t trust myself not to get on there and start searching for evidence of his regret. It wasn’t there. It only made me loathe myself for being so pathetic. And created many problems for me over the years. It causes depression and generally makes moving on impossible. Nip it in the bud, and don’t look back. There’s someone out there who will treat you with love and respect. Don’t lose anymore of your life on someone who isn’t capable of those basic things.
Be patient with yourself and in time, you’ll be stronger and happier
Sans