Day 11. It's funny I am still experiencing pangs: a sudden urge seemingly out of nowhere that floods the brain with the message to smoke weed, but again I resisted. I have noticed that the pangs are less frequent and don't last as long as the first few days but they haven't entirely disappeared.

Thank you WC and FDT for posting here. It helps me a lot to have this accountability and know that you have my back. I was using MJ as an escape from reality, reaching for it in clutch times, whenever i felt stressed. Now i just have to get through the anxiety every day. I gave up on propanolol because, even though I was only taking it in the morning, my sleep deteriorated.

Anyway as a lung cancer survivor I just tell myself each day that I am truly lucky to still be alive. On the other hand, getting lung cancer at such an early age was really bad fortune. Even though I was a smoker, most smokers don't get his until there 60s or 70s.