I always feel like I'm lying when I try to define who I am.

Like today I think 'co-consciousness' is big for me, but I see that as an improvement! I think it's worse when I just have one, one-dimentional aspect in complete dominance.

Right now it's as if there's a 'car' which is my body, and someone more or less in the driving seat who doesn't actually know how to drive (but that changes a bit), and the rest of the car full of emotional blobs yelling contradictory instructions and hitting.

Now and again one lunges forward and grabs the wheel and freaks us all out. Or drags the driver out of the driving seat with a choke hold and takes over, not listening to anyone else.

But that's just today. Tomorrow I'll probably read this and think it's all nonsense.