This really struck me. I'm struggling with similar thoughts right now. I've told my therapist there's something bothering me but that I need to sit with it before I decide whether to tell him or not. Recently he suggested we need to do something different/more for me and it brought up some intensely negative emotions for me. When he said that, it's like a potent reminder that I'm just work for him, and wow that really hurts. I know what the reality of the relationship is, but I just really want to mean something to him. Over our holiday break, he wrote me a letter to help me get through the two week break. One of the things he said in the letter was "that even when we aren't meeting our relationship is carried with you at all times". I really want to ask him if that sentiment goes the other way too, but I'm afraid what the answer would be. I know he's said that he will think/has thought of me. Shouldn't that be enough?