Not Happy with Your response...at the moment!

Me: “Hi FM,

I won’t let my mind process what you have said about getting through this last bit. You are correct on both counts.I read it twice but my brain won’t respond. Only the frighten adult-bodied child that used to be in your office with her right arm wrapped around your neck and my thumb in my mouth. I can’t even sustain the image to soothe myself. I also believe it is not what I really want. Yet, I am paralyzed to get this last piece done that I hope will free me from my past. This sucks! I only want it to be the way it was five-six years ago. I know you are not my therapist, but it has to do with the attachment piece and I feel I need you, but know I don’t. Unfortunately, I am in the mist of a five-year-old’s tantrum. F*^$ this Sh@#!!!! I did attempt to call, but chose not to leave a message because I am feeling so pathetic for the moment.

AesB”

Therapist: “Full adulthood is a scary place, eh?

They are the bumps that interfere with the smooth road, smooth transition.

There's no right or wrong. You decide you want to have your own life
badly enough to take this step, or you don't. You can choose to stop
your brain from processing, or you choose to allow it to do so, and
move on to the next step. A gift you give yourself now. Or later. Or
never. Only you have the power, and only you have the right to make
the choice.

Love you,
FM”

What a unproductive day I've had.