Please take care when reading. I don't want anyone to get triggered.

I was being molested by my step-grandfather and I can remember when I was younger that I would tell people it happened from about the age of 8 til I was 12, but now I only remember two specific times and I think I was about 10. I often question my own memories. There are times where I think about what he did and think about how disgusted I am with his actions. Then there is that kid in me that loved the attention and as sick as it is, it felt good. I mean, it physically felt pleasurable to have his hands down there. I was 12 when it finally all came out.

I had told my older sister. I was in a temporary group home where I was supposed to be for a short period of time. My sis came over because someone told her to talk to me to see if anything happened. I told her that he was touching me. I told her how long it was going on and I told her not to tell anyone. Of course she didn’t listen and told the group home.

They made my dad come get me. I told him what happened and he believed me…..until I told my step-mom. She freaked out and called me a liar and said that her father “could NEVER do something like that”. That was when my father decided that he wasn’t going to believe me anymore. After that time, I never talked about it with them. In fact, I haven’t ever really talked about what happened and how I feel about it. Mind you, I am pretty emotionless about it now and don’t have any qualms stating the facts.

Anyways, I just really wanted to get that out! Thanks for reading.

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