Thank you. I'm doing pretty good. I was talking to my best friend yesterday, and she agreed. In the past, I would have been sobbing like, "Whyyyyy did this happen to meeeeee," and spiraling, and going to The Dark Place, etc etc. But while I've been angry and, yes, crying sometimes, I'm not in that mode at all. I feel like a different, better person for this.

The hardest time is when I wake up in the morning. I do feel pain, then, and I think it's because I was so used to waking up and seeing a "Good morning, beautiful" text from him all these months. Once I get myself out of bed and moving though, I'm okay. I cried at a sad song this morning, and I think that's fine. But I've been trying to be mindful of the music I listen to. And I've been journaling, so that I can both get my thoughts out of my head, and also bring my journal with me to my appointments with my T.

I'm going in to get tested Monday, just because I'm responsible and careful, and want to make sure he didn't pass anything on to me in his recklessness. That may be hard. But it's only a few minutes.

I'll be okay.