I personally think normal can be quite boring!

Sometimes I wish I could work full-time like a "normal" person, but I try not to think on it too much and instead focus on what I am able to do. For me, that's being on disability and working part-time. Try not to compare yourself to these "normal" individuals, although I totally get that it's hard not to at times.

You say you struggle with socializing. Do you play any online games that involve a community? That can be a good way to socialize without totally leaving your comfort zone. MMORPGs like World of Warcraft or Final Fantasy XIV are fantastic examples. Many real life friendships start online. I met my current partner on this very website, after all.