hi breakdown...

i hope you'll soon feel well enough to stop cutting... have you seen the Sef Injury Forum ere at PC? they could help you in tht area more specifically...

as for the depression and lonliness.... try for now to value yourself as a good person who is worthy of good things in life...

open doors to positive experiences for yourself by determining that you are a person who matters, one who makes a difference..... whether we realize it or not, we are all examples of something.... we perpetuate our own beliefs by our own examples both within and outside ourselves...

you can begin to make the difference by thinking differently of yourself as worthy... as you surroundings as worthy... you can begin to create a new goodness in your life with this belief...

in time it will become easier as you see the pay off... it takes time tho.. keep working at it .. cause you're worth it...

take care