I come from poor people, so the idea of anyone granting me attention or personal caring because it's done at a prep school is hard to conceive. Even though my therapist is not in a posh practice, I pay her full fee. It just doesn't register that I am owed anything. Mostly, though, I had only been trying to sympathize with you because it's hard for me to deal with this kind of non-personal relationship too. I can see that it's not helping you to share my thoughts, so I am sorry and will stop.