Today I thought about what our first session in eight months will be like, I imagined me telling you how hard those eight months were for me and you asking me What coping mechanisms did you try to use?

And I realized... I don't think I've used any except maybe writing... I can't even remember any coping mechanisms that you taught me

I'm sorry I'm the worst client ever... when you see me again in August it will probably be like starting all over as if our first 1.5 years never happened